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entri2 kamu
entri2 buat kamu
yang tersisa di hujung ingat

rasa2 yang sudah berlalu
dan berdamai

tapi kalau tidak aku dilepas pergi
ruang2 ini takkan jadi seluas ini

ini penghargaan
untuk kamu.

lama tak bicara

sama kekaseh
kalau ada
hirup hari ini, cuba
jabat tangan and make peace dengan yang semalam, cuba
bukan panjang nyawa kamu
bukan jauh jalan ini
setapak lagi sudah terlupa tuju
berhenti sugul
berhenti berfikir
nafas kan, cuba
it doesn't matter how bigger your jeans are getting.

ode to fathers

i hate you for what you say

those hateful, hurtful words you hurl at me

i hate you for walling yourself up

for letting me misunderstand

i hate you for using me to get things done for you

when you use your sweetest smile and your sugar-coated words
words that i wouldn't even dream of
words that you never intended for me
words that you say to someone else that you shouldn't have
i hate you when you hide and i have to find you
i end up getting lost in the way, hurt and cold, my map all torn up
i hate you when you walk in through the door and i realize that i know you no longer
i wonder who might this stranger be, i should be careful of what i say lest you get mad again
i tread on glasses and eggshells, i stand beside the fire waiting to get burnt while you fuel it up
i hate you when you say you're ready to stay at the old folks home
like you're expecting to be dumped, to be ditched
i hate you when you don't know that
i
do
love
you
enough
to look after you, even with all these hurt
because you have willingly placed your name at the end of mine
carried me on your back and bought me things
kissed me goodnight and called me princess
because you're the only one with that 'f' word
and you should know this, stop being this stranger.




"the fight for you is all i've ever known, so come home"- one republic ft. sara bareilles.

i wanted to be Adam

who could name things at sheer whim
who was the first to inaugurate such gift
i wanted to be Adam so i could name this pain
so this agony could be dispelled at whim
could be called away and leave me be
while this nameless pain reigns on
here, even angels fear to go
and my wretched little heart,
i shall seek shelter for
thy shall not win.

don't you dare

dah lama tak dating sama andra. dah tak expert :(